Rainy Daze

Back to work again and of course it's raining and feeling weird about leaving my kids at home all day by themselves on a weekend day. Feel like there should be something for them to do while I'm gone. I hate it when they sit in front of the TV all day. Course I asked them to try to get off the couch and do something with their time like read, play a game,s crapbook, whatever I dont care as long as they move around a little.
Then I let my 14 yr old son stay at a friends house last nite that I am not real fond of. The last time which was a long time ago they were caught drinking. So I warned him that his whole life would change if he got in trouble again. You know all those threats that you dish out when you really hope that they make the right decisions while faced with peer pressure.....as well as having trust in your son that he will do the right thing.....Again going back to the dad thing, I was never trusted to do anything and I was a good kid I never got in trouble or even tried to get in trouble for fear of my dad....OK so I let him stay, now this morning do I really sense guilt in his face and actions or is that just me trying to find guilt???? Course he is a kid and needs to experience fun and life and make all those mistakes that we make on his own.....right??? I am seriously confused wheres the damn manual I know that I had it here somewhere sometime.....